Dissolve Your Expectation

"Whatever it is you're seeking won't come in the form you're expecting."

~Haruki Murakami

I know this look...

...all too well.

Many times, I felt as if I was sitting on the bench, watching my life play out.

I was waiting on my number to be called.

Hoping to be the MVP, but not moving until my "championship" was practically guaranteed.

As we know, fear is paralyzing. I have an enormous fear of failure.

I had benched my dreams, uncomfortably watching my team play without me.

Life was passing me by.

Why? It's simple. Expectations.

I expected success; still do actually.

I expected people to reciprocate.

I expected them to do right, do better, do more.

I tried to meet and exceed their expectations of me.

My expectancy escalated to anticipation.

I anticipated excellence. I sought out to be the best at everything. I took on too much.

Expectations were suffocating me; some self-imposed, some not.

I am learning to manage expectations:

*ask for help.

*get details before committing.

*communicate changes.

*use a calendar/planner.

*retreat, rest, refuel.

*facts over feelings.

I am my greatest opponent!

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